Today’s groceries

groceriesHi lovely readers, I hope you’re having a great weekend!

This is my grocery shopping from today. I bought a few things that are fancier than normal for me: organic extra virgin olive oil and apple cider vinegar, also organic. I bought them to make homemade salad dressing. I love homemade dressings, so I’m looking forward to making some. The avocado and tomatoes are definitely going to go in the salad 🙂

The cheese will be used for sandwiches and also maybe with some eggs. The chocolate pudding and hot chocolate are just nice treats.

I’m also starting to work on meal planning a little bit and tonight I’m planning to make a big batch of lentil soup so I can eat it during the week with lunch.

Here is what I bought today:

  • Seltzer water
  • Olive oil
  • Apple cider vinegar
  • Hot chocolate
  • Avocado
  • Salad
  • Cherry tomatoes
  • Cheese slices
  • Chocolate pudding
  • Carrots (not shown)

Total cost: $15. 30

A small treat: happy and guilt free

chocolate1Since yesterday I’ve really been hankering for some chocolate, so today I bought this delicious chocolate bar. Why am I posting about this? Because I’m happy to say that it was a treat and not a binge!

I ate enough to be satisfied, which was about half a bar and then I was miraculously and joyously able to stop.

I don’t take this for granted at all, in the very near past I would not have been able to do this. I would have eaten the whole bar and then moved onto a box of cookies and then who knows? Half a pizza? A whole pint of ice cream? And my reward for this behavior would be: feeling ill, depressed, bloated and like a complete failure.

With my eating disorder I simply take things day by day and meal by meal. If I had this bar tomorrow maybe I’d binge…but for today I was able to have a treat and not binge. I am very happy about this 🙂

I think treats are awesome and an important part of enjoying life. However because of my binge eating I have had a very, very hard time being able to just have a treat and not have it turn into an eating frenzy.

Today was a small healing victory 🙂

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Slightly less than half the bar is left. I’m saving it for my little household to finish. 

Hot chocolate recipe: dairy-free and sugar-free

I love dairy but recently dairy just isn’t loving me back and I’m finding that I get fatigue, bloating and just generally don’t feel well when I have dairy products.

I’ve been switching over to non-dairy milks, including almond, coconut and soy milks and I’ve definitely been feeling better because of it, so I think it’s a lifestyle change I’m going to try and stick with (although I do love real Parmesan cheese with pasta that’s a tough one to let go of).

Today was super cold and this afternoon I had a craving for a treat, specifically something chocolatey. However I didn’t want to have a calorie monster like a big slice of cake or a giant cookie and ruin my appetite for dinner, and also possibly bring on a binge.

So I gave it some thought and decided to try and make hot chocolate. I really enjoy hot chocolate, it’s delicious, soothing and warm and felt just right for what I needed today.

I had some of the ingredients at home already but I needed to buy the cocoa powder and vanilla extract.

I like the recipe I came up with, however because I’m not using standard ingredients like dairy milk and white sugar you may definitely need to tinker with it to have it fit your taste needs.  I made it for myself, so the recipe only serves one. As a bonus, it’s  also low in calories!!

The ingredients I used:

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Hot Chocolate: Dairy-Free and Sugar-Free

Serves 1

1.5 cups almond milk, unsweetened (sweetened is fine, you may prefer to use less stevia)

1/4 cup non-dairy creamer

1.5 tablespoons cocoa powder

1/2 teaspoon stevia powder, or to taste (note: check the label of your stevia as sweetness levels can vary widely)

1/4 teaspoon vanilla extract

pinch salt (optional)

In a saucepan add all ingredients except the vanilla extract. Over medium heat whisk in all the cocoa powder. When hot chocolate begins to gently simmer turn off heat and add the vanilla extract. Serve and enjoy!! 🙂