Making a U-turn

photo.jpgThe other day I wrote a post very honestly discussing how much I struggle with sugar. Basically I said that I planned to never eat sugar again.

While everything I said was completely true, fair and honest…something didn’t sit quite right with me. And this morning I realized what it is: It was my all-or-nothing thinking, and perfectionist tendencies rearing their ugly head trying to make me do something that is quite likely impossible for me. It’s my classic eating disorder way of thinking.

The whole point of keeping this blog is so I can be honest about my successes, failures and growth along the way. My journey to healing is essentially an on-going trial and error for me to see what works and what doesn’t.

Healing -from anything- just takes time and has it’s own natural process. I don’t want to get in my own way by placing all kinds of restrictions on myself, however well intentioned they may be.

By my saying I “can’t” eat something and I’m “not allowed” all that does is keep me from getting well. It keeps me from having a normal, healthy relationship with food….because after all it’s just food.

So as of today I’m taking all of the food restrictions off and simply continuing on my healing journey to hopefully establish a healthy relationship with food ❤


Sunflower seeds: A good alternative to peanuts?

peanutandsunflowerThe other day I bought a bag of roasted sunflower seeds and I’ve really been enjoying them. It got me thinking: would sunflower seeds be a good alternative to peanuts?*

They both share some positive similarities:

  • They each have a good amount of protein. Peanuts have about 7 grams per ounce, and sunflower seeds 5 grams per ounce.
  • They are inexpensive and frugal: I can generally buy 1 pound of either peanuts or sunflower seeds for $1.99-$2.50. Many other nuts such as almonds, cashews and pecans can easily cost $4-8 per pound (or more!).
  • They both make good snacks and mix well with other nuts, dried fruit and chocolate.

Although peanuts are delicious, they are also famously problematic for causing allergies that can be very severe. I love the taste of peanuts but after much trial and error I’ve come to realize that I have a sensitivity to them but not a full-on allergy. When I eat peanut butter I start to quickly not feel quite right; not massively ill but I get indigestion and fatigue.

Because of this I’ve had to pretty much let go of peanuts, especially peanut butter. Not 100% but they are not an every day player in my diet.

The other tough thing about peanut butter for me is that if I’m not careful I will just keep eating it; and all of a sudden half the jar is gone. It’s not an ideal food with my eating disorder.

Which leads me to sunflower seeds!

So far sunflower seeds are looking good: when I eat them I feel fine, which is very nice. I appreciate that they make a good snack and are also frugal. They are available as a seed butter, but it’s not as common as peanut butter and is almost always more expensive.

I’d like to experiment more with using sunflower seeds in savory dishes, such as sprinkling them on top of stir fries instead of peanuts, and adding them to salads for extra crunch and depth of flavor.

To conclude, I’m all for sunflower seeds these days and will continue to use them as a healthy and tasty alternative to peanuts.

How do you feel about peanuts vs. sunflower seeds (or other nuts/seeds)?

*Of course if you’re allergic/sensitive to sunflower seeds please don’t eat them 🙂