The past day has been more of a struggle with my food. Nothing bad at all has happened in my life, in fact for the most part it’s been ok. It’s hard for me to say this but: I binged. Now it’s out there in the open.
I’m so grateful to have this blog to record my healing journey with it’s ups and downs. If I don’t keep things honest and pretend that everything’s always ok I really won’t be able to heal the way I need to.
I know my bingeing is a tricky beast: it’s a mix of old bad habits and complicated emotional “stuff” (family, stress, anxiety, etc).
One of my main goals with this blog is to honestly chronicle my ups and downs in the hopes of at least changing my behavior so that it becomes progressively more healthy. I truly believe that as I start to consistently take better care of myself I will, in time, become better.
I have to be kind to myself and give myself grace. No one said I could or would heal in a day or a week. This is a healing journey and I intend to stay the course.